I talked with a friend who recently adopted and went to the urgent care with anxiety, and was put on medicine. I remember those days, breathing deep, crying all the time, inhaling/exhaling, waking up and it was hard to breath....
I had one of those even last night. We have come a long way, but some days are just harder than others....and I have chosen not to take medicine, but I probably should take it! So I just slam cabinet doors or scream. I haven't done this for a long time, (at least since we moved in a year ago), but the other day I slammed a cabinet door, and it broke. My husband picked 1am to talk to me about it...not really the coolest thing....
I had said a long time ago, if we're not a team, then I really don't have much to look forward to....
I guess I still have hockey games, some good books, and the dog to walk. In some ways I have quit today...it's a balance between scrunching up my eyebrows or crying, and I don't have much to say to my kids...they did get an egg breakfast (that means I didn't sleep in forever like some days). The kids have lots of activities we can bounce back and forth from today with the praise music going, so that helps.
It's hard to be a quitter....it's easier to do our day cheerfully, but for some reason I just can't today. I'm having a hard time hearing the sounds of the kids voices, and even looking at my children. Chris says I should find someone to talk to (because I'm so messed up)...so I guess you're the audience! I know there are others out there like this, that struggle from time to time...
The kids are good, the boys are finishing their tests this morning, the girls are having trouble finding something quiet to do, guess I should go braid their hair for their praise dancing today, would like to walk the dog, but that won't happen for awhile...
It's just me that is "messed up"...
Alesia
I had one of those even last night. We have come a long way, but some days are just harder than others....and I have chosen not to take medicine, but I probably should take it! So I just slam cabinet doors or scream. I haven't done this for a long time, (at least since we moved in a year ago), but the other day I slammed a cabinet door, and it broke. My husband picked 1am to talk to me about it...not really the coolest thing....
I had said a long time ago, if we're not a team, then I really don't have much to look forward to....
I guess I still have hockey games, some good books, and the dog to walk. In some ways I have quit today...it's a balance between scrunching up my eyebrows or crying, and I don't have much to say to my kids...they did get an egg breakfast (that means I didn't sleep in forever like some days). The kids have lots of activities we can bounce back and forth from today with the praise music going, so that helps.
It's hard to be a quitter....it's easier to do our day cheerfully, but for some reason I just can't today. I'm having a hard time hearing the sounds of the kids voices, and even looking at my children. Chris says I should find someone to talk to (because I'm so messed up)...so I guess you're the audience! I know there are others out there like this, that struggle from time to time...
The kids are good, the boys are finishing their tests this morning, the girls are having trouble finding something quiet to do, guess I should go braid their hair for their praise dancing today, would like to walk the dog, but that won't happen for awhile...
It's just me that is "messed up"...
Alesia
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